Yesterday while running, I saw a large land. I knew the land right past the river was the promised land, but I saw many different family units stopping just short of entering and settling. They were setting up homes and lives just outside of God’s promise. Only a few were strong and courageous and went after the full blessing of the Lord. Don’t get me wrong, the land outside the promise was still pretty and it felt safe, but it wasn’t living in the fullness. Man, I want to live in the fullness. I want the whole promise.
I have always been an “all or nothing” type of personality. I have just a few friends because I am all in when I befriend someone. In marriage, I’ve been fully committed to not only staying married, but living the best life we can together. As a parent, I am constantly striving to become better. To know my kids better and learn better ways of shepherding their little hearts. In worship, well, I think anyone who has watched me worship would never say I am not all in. I worship with every fiber of my being, whether I’m alone at home or even the only one in the crowd worshiping in the fullness. So, when it comes to believing, embracing and walking in God’s blessings, I am all in.
I don’t want to only live on the outskirts of the land flowing with milk and honey. No, I want to be in it. I want to walk with God. I want to see how His mighty hand will move in my life when I choose Him. I am all in.
During this particular season of life, being all in means walking out on the water with no clue what’s ahead of me. Nowhere in sight do I see how God will provide. I only know He will. The funny thing is, as I have surrendered and made conscious decisions to remain at rest, He has skillfully orchestrated every step. I only need to stay right with Him, not charging ahead and not lagging behind, but right by His side.
Are you willing to allow God to orchestrate your steps even when you can’t see ahead? Even when it all seems scary and life as you know it is at risk? I never want to hold so tight to what I have and where I am, that I miss out on something better He wants to give me. We don’t always move forward because what we have is bad, no sometimes we give up something good for something better.
God, right now I surrender to partnering with Your best plan for me and my family. Lord, forgive me for anytime I have allowed fear to take the wheel. I give You full control of my life and my family. I relinquish my post at the helm and ask You to be my Captain. I know You are a good Captain and will watch over me. I am fully surrendered. I am Yours. I love You, in Jesus name, Amen.
The story below is a continual reminder to me about not settling. I don’t want to miss out on anything, I want the promise!!
They came back to Moses and Aaron and the whole Israelite community at Kadesh in the Desert of Paran. There they reported to them and to the whole assembly and showed them the fruit of the land. They gave Moses this accout: “We went into the land to which you sent us, and it does flow with milk and honey! Here is its fruit. But the people who live there are powerful, and the cities are fortified and very large. We even saw descendants of Anak there. The Amalekites live in the Negev; the Hittites, Jebusites and Amorites live in the hill country; and the Canaanites live near the sea and along the Jordan. Then Caleb silenced the people before Moses and said, “We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it.” Numbers 13:26-30