Day 180: Escape (June 29)

This morning as I sat with my breakfast in my lap, realizing my time in PA was rapidly coming to an end and I still don’t know where we will live once we leave and this home has yet to be sold, I closed my eyes and leaned back my head with a sigh.  I began to feel anxiety trying to find a ground to develop in my heart.  Suddenly I saw a giant, brighter than white, dove descending upon me.  When I felt that Presence fall on me, I also felt an invitation, so I looked up into the dove that was covering me.  I could see into Heaven and in my vision, I walked into Heaven and felt a flood of peace.  I felt the moment when there is no care in the world.  A moment when you know everything is fine because you are in the Presence of the Lord.  Then God spoke to me, “You used to try to escape many different ways, but now I invite you to escape into Me.”

Talk about breath taking.

Honestly, I don’t know how to begin to process the wonder and love of that moment, much less write to you about something so very personal and intimate to my heart.

Guys, I hope you realize that when I share these daily devotionals, I am literally giving you a glimpse straight into the private space between God and me.  This is sacred to me.  It’s an honor to share with you.  I just wanted you to know……

Many people find escape in a bottle, drugs, and sex.  Many Christians even.  Others find escape in over-planning and following a million different paths saying God directed them, but when that’s not true others can feel it.  We know when we’re lying to ourselves too.

What God is offering today is for us to discover Him as our escape.  Escaping in heavenly things.  His Presence literally came and fell on me because He knew I needed a reprieve today.

He sees me walking well outside my comfort zone.  He knows I’m making every effort to walk boldly and unapologetically in His plan.  He knows I’m waiting on Him when I’d rather force the issue and find any place to live and make any compromise to sell this house.  But that’s not His best for me.  I’m discovering that sometimes we don’t see God’s best in our lives and it’s because we’ve decided to make other plans.  It’s not ever His fault, even though we blame Him.

He is my plan.  Not just plan A or B, He is my only plan.

My question to you is, what’s your plan?  Do you allow God to lead you, or do you ask Him to lead and then at the first sign of inconvenience or discomfort take charge and leave Him behind?  Today is a good day to give God control.  To let Him begin to lead you.  It may be hard sometimes, but it’s always worth it because He knows what’s best and He is the only One Who can lead you while seeing your entire story from beginning to end while He’s with you in the moment.  That’s a definite advantage.  Will you trust Him?

I will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress, My God, in Whom I trust!”  Psalm 91:2

The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, My God, my rock, in Whom I take refuge; my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.  Psalm 18:2