Day 185: Healing (July 4)

I woke this morning thinking about healing.  Yesterday, my husband hurt his arms while trying to move a fallen tree out from the middle of a road.  We are concerned he may have fractured one of them when the tree popped up and hit him.  Honestly, I know we are blessed that he wasn’t hurt worse, but when he’s trying to complete a mowing project and move our furniture in a couple of days, this feels big.

I very unapologetically believe in God’s healing power for today.  I won’t even pretend that I don’t.  You can believe what you’d like, but I’ve seen him heal before and I know it’s for us too.

Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in Me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask in My name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son.  You may ask Me anything in My name, and I will do it.  John 14:12-14

So, these are the moments when I ask, “What is standing between me and Your healing power being released over my husband right now?”

Then I see a shadow of doubt.  But why?  I’ve seen healing before, so why would there be any doubt at all?

I honestly can’t tell you.

This may be the most unresolved feeling devotionals yet, but I know God wanted me to share my walk through this moment with you.  I am not afraid to share this.

I hope that soon I will be writing of how God completely healed my husband and he was able to get back to doing all that he was doing, but even if I don’t, God is good.

Right now, in this moment, I know God is good and He doesn’t have to heal Chris in order to prove it to me.  When I was laying in bed and praying about it and feeling worry creep in, suddenly and very loudly, I began to hear the Rich Mullins song, “Our God is an Awesome God” play over and over through my mind.  That’s also when I began to hear God writing this devotional in my heart.  Before I got up and decided to type it out, He was scripting it. So, I know, there is something to this moment.  There is substance in the question and in the process of this.

I ask you not if you believe in healing, but do you believe God is good no matter what?  That’s where this was all headed and I didn’t know it until I typed it……Do you believe God is good, no matter what?

I’m not asking for your good “christian” answer, I’m asking if you really, truly believe in your heart of hearts that God is good.

You are good and do good; teach me Your statutes.  Psalm 119:68

The Lord is good to all, and His mercies are over all His works.  Psalm 145:9

O give thanks to the Lord, for He is good; for His loving kindness is everlasting. 1 Chronicles 16:34