We climbed into the U-Haul and began to drive away from our Jubilee home, and I began to feel sorrow. Trying to avoid that feeling, I asked God, “Why haven’t we sold this house yet? It would be so much better to know we can fully move ahead.” With the gentle kindness of a truly loving Father He said, “Because I wanted to teach you more about releasing. I want you to fully experience unplugging from one thing before plugging back into another.” Then I saw an outlet, and He said, “You can’t plug in another cord without first removing one.”
So, I’m learning to unplug.
This term doesn’t usually mean this now days, but to me in this moment with the Father, it does. I allowed myself to stop looking ahead, and fully embraced the pain and grief of letting go. Even if you know you’re headed where God is leading, and even if you know He has good planned in the next step, it’s still sad to walk away from something you have loved. It’s ok to need to grieve. You need that time. That pause. That opportunity to fully unplug.
I am so grateful that Abba takes the time to meet me in every moment and teaches me all I need to know. He is the epitome of what true Fatherhood looks like. Not hiding us away from discomfort, but always steadily walking us through it. Always willing to give instruction. Patient. Gentle. Kind. The list could go on and on.
Since He showed me the principle of unplugging, I have chosen to fully “be” exactly where I am. Instead of constantly obsessing over our next move, I am embracing the moment. I am living out today. I believe we could all use this lesson. Re-learning how to be present. Learning how to process change.
It’s the wee hours of the morning right now, and later today we will drive to OK to look at the kid’s future school and a home we like, and then again, I will need to choose to be present and to not worry. We are using this trip over to our next hometown as a way of giving the kids a hope for their future. They have still not visited it, and I felt they needed to begin to see we are headed somewhere…..but not at the sacrifice of today’s peace.
Lord, give me all the tools I need to lead my kids in peace. Help me to teach not only by words, but also (and most importantly) by deeds. Let my life be a walk so steeped in faith that it can’t help but color the way my kids see You and the life they live. Let my life be a testimony of trust and faithfulness, in Jesus name, Amen.
But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, Whom the Father will send in My name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; My peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:26-27
But You, O Lord, are a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness. Psalm 86:15
How precious is Your unfailing love, O God! Psalm 36:7