I can’t stop having a certain vision. I keep seeing an egg that’s hatching. Whenever I see it, I know something new is about to happen. I know God is about to break through.
In a time when our family is in such a limbo, I can’t tell you how comforting this vision is to me. We are so grateful to have my parents open their home to the kids and me while we wait to sell our PA home, but the truth is it’s hard to not have our own place. No matter what, that’s hard on a person. We long for normal. Maybe I struggle with it more than most, I don’t really know, but I long to have our own landing place. Our own escape. To cook in my own kitchen and sit alone for quiet time. To play my piano and worship. To tuck my kids into their own beds. No matter how grateful we are for God’s provision during this time, I would be lying if I said I didn’t long for the next step.
So, isn’t it gracious that God keeps this vision right in front of me? He loves me and knows me so well that He knew I needed an encouragement.
The last time I went to our PA church, a friend came up to me and said God had woken her in the middle of the night and had spoken to her about us. Do you know what He said? He said He would give me a nest. He woke her in the night just to reassure me that a new home would come. Jesus loves me, this I know. Yes, the Bible tells me so, but also His actions of constantly reassuring, tell me so.
Have you stopped to notice the times when God tailor makes certain events in your life, just to speak love to you? Like finding a little handwritten love note from your spouse tucked into a place where they know you’ll find it, God uses little things to speak love to me. I only had to learn how to notice. When I began to discover my value to Him, then I could better see and receive His love for me.
Have you discovered your value? Did you know He truly cares for you enough to shower you with His affirmation? It’s true. But you must learn to stop shrugging it off because it makes you feel uncomfortable and unworthy, and just embrace it. Some people, I used to be one, have so much trouble receiving kind deeds from others because they can’t imagine anyone wanting to love on them. Or they can’t stop seeing all the bad, long enough to believe for the best from others. You must train yourself to believe for the best from others. Not in a naïve way, but in this way. I trust God enough to trust Him to protect me from others, so as a result I am more open to receiving love. Trusting others directly stems from our willingness to trust God. Let that soak in a bit. Trusting others directly stems from our willingness to trust God.
So, do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world. John 16:33
Cast your anxiety on Him because He cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7
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