Day 282: Longing (October 9)

I have a deep longing inside.  I can’t get away from it, and I can’t deny it.  I have a longing that I cannot truly define.  I don’t fully understand it.  I am always longing for more of God.

Do you have that longing?  Do you feel nagged inside by a constant need for more of the Father?

Is it something that keeps you pushing further into His heart?

I now believe that my life was meant to contain a longing.  I now see that longing is from God.  Like I long for a deeper and more intimate connection with my husband, from year to year, I also long for God.  Isn’t that how it should be?  We are called to be His bride.  So, I am certain that my longing for Him will only increase and deepen over the years.  The feelings of affection that I have for the Father are only intensifying as the years float by.

Just as in marriage, I sometimes think we can get so distracted by life that we forget our first Love.  It’s easy to be so busy that we simply brush off that small feeling of longing inside.  We brush it off because it can feel inconvenient.  I feel some of us can ignore that longing because we are hurting inside and fear that acknowledging that longing will make us cry or make us emotional.  But we should never fear the stirring up of emotion, especially if it directs us to a more open relationship with God.  I also feel some avoid that longing because of relationships separate from God, that have created wounds, some of those of a sexual nature.  It can be hard to let your guard down when you have had negative sexual encounters, because then all intimacy can begin to feel alarming.  I absolutely know this to be true.

I also know that the only way out of that roller coaster of feelings, is to allow God in and give Him permission to heal us.  It may feel awkward at first.  It may feel strange to be close, but over time and through His gracious and merciful and unrelenting love, it will become a safe place.

That place that the enemy tried to rob you of, is meant for God.

That safe place where Adam and Eve walked naked and unashamed with God through the garden.  Don’t you see, the enemy has always feared our intimacy with Abba?


Well, I propose it’s because the closer we are to the Truth, the less we will believe the liar.

Let that sink into your spirit.  Read it again.  Now let the Light of Love wash over you, as He restores your communion with Him.

Then the man and his wife heart the sound of the Lord God as He was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the Lord among the trees of the garden.  But the Lord called to the man, “Where are you?”  He answered, “I heard you in the garden and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid.”  And He said, “Who told you that you were naked?  Have you eaten from the tree that I commanded you not to eat from?”  Genesis 3:8-11

This began our separation, let today begin your restoration.