This morning as I sit before the Lord, I feel a wind. With the wind I feel a mixture of sadness and joy. It feels like the fall winds that are blowing around outside. I feel like I’m letting go. I have never really liked to let go, although it’s such a necessary thing to do.
See, our home in PA has sold. We are wrapping up the final paperwork and a closing date is inching closer and closer. While I am so grateful and excited, it also carries a twinge of sadness. I will never again walk through that house that the Lord so graciously provided. It was indeed a case of, “More than I could ask or imagine” when He blessed us with it. So, as with anything I must let go of, there is a grieving. Yes, we have a beautiful home here in OK. Yes, I am so glad to be here and to be starting a new chapter in life. But, I also loved where we were. I loved my friends there. I loved how it grew to be a familiar place. I loved the fall in PA. The trees became so brightly colored that some appeared to be on fire in their brilliance. I miss the local coffee shop where I would go meet a friend and eat yummy food and have a fancy coffee. I miss my church. I miss the teenagers at that church. I love them.
With all the good here, I won’t stop remembering the good there too.
The wind has come. The wind of a season of change.
My only consolation as time passes by is, God is always right by my side. Every day I feel Him holding me. I actually feel Him in some ways that I never had before, and I know that’s one reason change is good. It helps us discover new depths of His affection.
Lord, come like a wind. Blow over the expanse of my heart and fill me again. God, I am grieving. Comforter, come hold me. Abba, I miss having a church body. I miss having regular places to lead worship every week, and people to grow in You with. But I thank You that I can be confident that You will once again provide all these things…. In time. Help me walk out that time gracefully. I am fully surrendered to You, in Jesus name, Amen.
Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:13
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Philippians 4:4-5
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him. Hebrews 11:6
Because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” So we say with confidence, “The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?” Hebrews 13:5b-6
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