Deeper Day 104: Shards

Shard: a piece of broken ceramic, metal glass, or rock typically having sharp edges.  Piece, fragment, bit

As we’ve been living a strange lifestyle in this short season, I have noticed certain shards of brokenness have become inflamed.  Places where I’ve received healing in the past, but apparently there was, at least a small amount of residual effect left behind in that place of pain.

We all have a choice when we realize we are walking out behavior or thought patterns from the past.  We can simply brush it off and say, “I’ve dealt with that already.”, while we smugly and stubbornly continue along our way.  Or we can realize that we must still have a shard of hurt or brokenness in that spot that should be dealt with.

Even if we’ve received healing or breakthrough in a place, it’s possible for it to be once again aggravated from time to time.  The beauty of having received the previous healing is that it shouldn’t take long to get back to the truth again.

Within the last two weeks, my value has been questioned.  The enemy has been whispering to me as I’ve been stepping out in several areas of ministry that God has been leading me into.  We all know this isn’t an uncommon thing for the enemy to do.  That’s why it’s so important to stay humble and be willing to revisit (for the purpose of deeper healing or to be reminded of the truth) anything that he tries to use to obstruct us.

I walked through a multi-year process of establishing a healthy view of my value with God many years ago, but that doesn’t mean I won’t ever need to pause and allow Him to re-establish that within me again.

That’s exactly what I did this last week, and it was beautiful and swiftly dealt with.  I traced my way back to the spot where I began to feel challenged, and within a very brief moment, I was set back on track.

God is so gracious to us, especially in our weakness.  He says that in our weakness He is strong, so I’ve learned to really lean into these broken moments and to fully rely on Him to pull me out.  I no longer try to just push through in my own strength.  Instead, I have learned that evidence of a weakness in me, is an opportunity to be held by the King of kings.  I love those opportunities.

Prayer Moment: God, I thank You for staying so near to us.  Thank You for not wasting any opportunity to hold and protect us.  You are so faithful and loving.  God, help me to remain forever open and willing to bring my brokenness to you.  Let me never be ashamed of it and let me never hold back.  I will intentionally remain open to You. You are my Source and my Defender.  I trust You.  In Jesus name, Amen.

But I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God; I trust in God’s unfailing love forever and ever.  I will praise You forever for what You have done; in Your name I will hope, for Your name is good.  I will praise You in the presence of Your saints.  Psalm 52:8-9