Deeper Day 132: I can do this

As we are wrapping up school, I find myself desperate for us to finish. It’s funny because I have mostly enjoyed teaching the kids. I love the one on one time I get with them, especially Hannah and Micah. Every day I sit shoulder to shoulder with each of them and we do school together. This time has been a hidden treasure during the storm of quarantine. But just as with every normal school year, when the last week is around the bend, I find myself struggling to finish strong.

I am eager for the summer days when we have no alarm clock or schedule to keep, but I also know that by mid-summer I will be aching for a schedule again, so I’m not blissfully unaware. Quite the opposite, I’ve learned to be soberly aware. I know the ebbs and flows of my personality and each of my kids, as well.

I know I can do this. I know they can do this. I am raising kids that will hopefully always finish strong.

To me it matters far less how you start something, rather it’s the way you end it that shows true character, in my opinion.

It’s easy to start something with focus and ample energy, it’s far more difficult to finish with the same or even an increased tenacity.

This all leads me to some thoughts…where are you in your walk with Jesus?

Maybe you started out really strong, but are you still walking as boldly and deliberately now that time has passed? Were you once on fire for Him, but maybe after many years that fire is more like a pile of smoldering embers? Where are you now?

When I first fell in love with Jesus, some misguided older believers told me that what I was experiencing was great, but I would fade out like they did. Every time someone has spoken something like that to or over me, I immediately rebuked it in my heart. Just because time has passed, and I grow older doesn’t mean my passion or zeal for Jesus has to fade. It doesn’t mean that I don’t still need to press into Him for continual healing and growth. It doesn’t mean that I can’t always be molded and changed.

On the contrary, the ones I look up to the most are those who never cease to search out God’s heart in new ways. My parents have done well in leaving me a legacy of never being too old to learn new things or meet with Jesus in new ways. They are a solid examples of how to keep growing in God.

We will never “arrive” this side of heaven. There is always more to discover.

Prayer Moment: God, help me to remain humble enough to learn more about You. Keep me so close that I never lose sight of how I can grow in any given season. I want to be one who walks so near to you that as I mature, I become less and less me, and more and more like You. Eclipse my heart with Your presence so I see all of life through Your perspective. I truly am Yours forever. Help me to always remain open to You in every way. In Jesus name, Amen.

He who gets wisdom loves his own soul; he who cherishes understanding prospers. Proverbs 19:8

The heart of the discerning acquires knowledge; the ears of the wise seek it out. Proverbs 18:14