As I was walking the other day, I was deep in prayer. I was thinking about our needs right now and how I was struggling to feel hope. The land felt dry. My heart felt dry. Even though I spend time every day in God’s presence, I have struggled to feel refreshed. When I feel refreshed for a moment, the feeling doesn’t seem to last long. It is like I’m currently walking through the desert, and the sun is at noonday position blaring its heat on me and burning my skin and drying me out. In the heat of the day, the desert is so hot that even when you drink water, you need more soon after. You need a constant source of hydration to walk in the midst of heat like that. But how do you have a constant source of water when you are walking through?
In the middle of these thoughts, I began to have a vision. I saw all around me, in very close proximity to one another, thousands of covered wells. These sources of hydration were just sitting there, waiting to be uncovered. So, I asked God to come and uncover them.
It felt like a breeze began to stir as I saw myself bending down and uncovering the well nearest to me. Then I dove in and was fully immersed in this welcome water source.
I am no longer content to simply drink from the wells of God, I want to be fully immersed.
My longing and need for God has far surpassed any slight dedication, it is all in. I am all in. even if others don’t understand or misunderstand me, I have no choice at this point in life, than to be all in.
Since that moment, I have noticed I’m surrounded by places to find His presence, even in a crowd. Even when others may be watching. But I don’t care. I will meet Him anywhere and everywhere because I am so desperate.
I hope the waters of hope wash away all the fear of man and leave me in a naked state before the Lord. A place where I allow His thoughts of me to clothe me, as I become fully vulnerable to Him. I need Him. Without Him I can’t even take my next breath. It’s still funny to me that the more I mature in my faith and walk with Him, the more I discover how very dependent I must remain upon Him.
So, I lean. I lean into Him and learn. He gives me life and hope. He is my One.
Prayer Moment: God, lead me to the wellspring of hope today. No matter what happens or what news comes, let me be fully immersed in Your Presence. God, I pray for good news. I know You have good in store for me and I’m so thirst for good news. I love You and will follow You all the days of my life and with my whole heart. You alone are worthy of praise. I surrender to You, again. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Understanding is a wellspring of life unto him that hath it; but the instruction of fools is folly. Proverbs 16:22
Above all else guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. Put away perversity from your mouth; keep corrupt talk far from your lips. Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you. Make level paths for your feet and take only ways that are firm. Do not swerve to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil. Proverbs 4:23-27
365 Days in the Presence 