A while back I kept having a vision. In this vision I would hear God say, “Bond servant” and then an earring would be placed in the top part of my ear. Instead of feeling like a negative thing though, this felt like an honor. Still I was left confused.
Bond servant: a person bound in service without wages
Then it became much more clear to me. During this season, since being laid off from my job last November, I ended a long, paid working season to enter a ministry season. I have known for quite some time that this was the season for which I was made. For the last several years of working my paying job, I felt so empty and frustrated. I felt called to something different. More than once God had said that if I would walk away from the job, He would bless our business and bless me in motherhood. It may sound crazy, but that’s what He said. When He said this to me, I told Him, “You’re going to have to convince Chris because he isn’t going to like this.” Who knew last November that God would use this shift in seasons to release me from working that job, and into a very focused ministry season. I will be forever grateful. Something wonderful happened when I was released from my job and could fully feel restored to motherhood. Who would have ever known covid would happen and send us into a hidden homeschool season? This sacred respite from “real life” was amazing and has altered our family dynamic for the better in so many ways. Day by day I felt God kiss me with the joy of mothering. I LOVE being a mom. I LOVE being a mother figure to others. I LOVE this beautiful calling. I also LOVE this season of ministry. I LOVE writing all the curriculum I’ve been writing. I LOVE writing music. So many LOVES have come to my life when I surrendered to being His bond servant. Such honor has come from this low position. Isn’t is funny how God works?! We go low to be lifted high.
Then one day this week while I was out exercising, I saw myself dressed as a geisha girl and then I transformed into a queen. In that moment I knew that God was moving me from servant to queen. What a unique and special moment.
There’s a verse that I also heard in that moment…
For the scripture says, “Do not muzzle the ox while it is trading out the grain,” and “The worker deserves his wages.” 1 Timothy 5:18
“When you enter a house, first say, ‘Peace to this house.’ If a man of peace is there, your peace will rest on him; if not, it will return to you. Stay in that house eating and drinking whatever they give you, for the worker deserves his wages.” Luke 10:5-7a
I know that the compensation will be coming. God hasn’t asked me to be a pauper, rather He is setting me up to walk in full blessings. Is it wrong to say this? I don’t believe so. For many years I struggled with feeling guilty about needing to be provided for, but how crazy is that?! It was not at all God’s heart for me. He is the giver of ALL good things.
Prayer Moment: God, I receive every good thing You have planned for me. Help me to never self-sabotage myself from receiving the wonders You have laid aside for me. I want to partner with Your grace in every season. Sustain me through today and lead me into tomorrow, for I trust in You. In Jesus’ name, Amen.