Lately I’ve felt like life is a lot like being in labor. There are a few key places where I’m so excited to see God move and show me what’s next, that I’m having to constantly tell myself, “Don’t push!” The constant internal struggle to remain relaxed when I’m just ready to move forward is very real. But I know the only successful way to move forward is in God’s timing.
Does this make sense?
In so many ways it reminds me of the times I’ve given birth. Before and during the pushing phases, there are moments when everything inside of me wanted to just bear down and push as hard as I could. But that simply wasn’t always what I needed to do, both to protect my body and the baby. It was always very important for me to listen to and obey the instruction of my mid-wife. As hard as it was sometimes, I surrendered to her wisdom and followed her instruction, and as a result I was able to deliver babies safely even with the umbilical cord around their necks. When Micah was ready to be delivered, she discovered the cord was wrapped around his neck twice. This meant it was much shorter now than it should have been. But in what could have been a potentially dangerous moment, she guided me, and it became a beautiful moment.
This is what life is like for me right now.
I am desperate to see the “babies” I’ve been carrying. By babies, I mean ministry and some personal things that I’ve been fighting for and building into. But if I rush the process, I’m likely to cause damage to the very things I’ve sacrificed and fought so hard for.
So, I must listen to God and not my urges. When my entire body is saying, “Push through! Demand!!”. My spirit is saying, “Wait. I will bring all things together in My time.” That gentle voice is so steadying.
I can’t lie, I’ve had a lot of the fear of man manifesting and a fear of disappointment, getting looked over and rejection. But I can’t allow those voices to be louder than God. I cannot allow my level of discomfort to drive me. I must remain focused through this birth process, so I see the full potential. And who knows what extras God may have in store for me! He promises things beyond what I can dream or imagine, so I am daily letting go of my ideal outcome and trusting His sovereign plan.
I don’t know what is happening with your life, but if you too are in a birthing season, I hope this encourages you to take heart and see it all the way through. Don’t rush what God is perfecting for you!
Prayer Moment: God, You are the best birth coach ever. I will trust You to bring about all things in Your timing. Help me to walk this out without sabotaging myself. Give me grace for myself and others. Open doors. Create ways. Lead me. I am all in. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. Ecclesiastes 3:11
I will wait for the Lord, Who is hiding His face from the descendants of Jacob. I will put my trust in Him. Isaiah 8:17