Deeper Day 345: Holding On

I don’t know about you, but I am so busy right now that I feel like I’m barely holding on. The merry go round of life has been flung into full swing and I am feeling the gravity press me inward. Concurrently, as I watch so much going on in our country, I feel the constant necessity to center my spirit and lean in to hear God’s voice above all else. My life is a constant balancing act right now.

It’s no secret that I thrive most easily at a slower tempo, but as a wife and mother of four I don’t get that privilege often. I see that God wants me to spend my life, not withhold it. Meaning, if I had things my way, I’d spend copious amounts of time at home alone in His presence, but as much as He loves being alone with me, He also wants me to share what I have with others.

I remember the first time God told me that He wouldn’t pour anymore into me in the secret place until I began to pour into others. From that point to this, I have consistently purposed to share my walk.

The way I’ve chosen to walk with Him in the slow times, is what gives me the energy, focus and grace to walk through these extremely busy times. So, when my personality screams “Stop!!! I need to slow down.” I have learned to look for the moments of respite. This is what keeps me holding on.

If your feeling pressed upon by life right now, I encourage you to search out respite. If Covid has you feeling confused and frustrated, then search out a moment of respite. Seek hope. If the election craziness has you scared and heavy, find a respite. Seek peace. If daily life with marriage, kids, work and other obligations has you feeling overwhelmed. Build a little respite into your life. Seek joy.

There have been many times over the years when I have simply cried out to God from my very soul, “I just want to be in heaven!!!”. These are sacred moments, not shame filled moments. These are times when my heart and flesh cry out for the living God. This is me longing for heaven, my eternal home. There’s nothing wrong with that tension. But I cannot allow it to overshadow the fact that to live is Christ and to die is gain. I have purposes yet to fulfill upon this earth. God’s not finished with me yet.

So, until that day when I see the fullness of His glory, I will be here holding on.

Prayer Moment: God, would You hold me for a while? I feel the busyness of this week pulling on me, and I need to find rest inside my soul. Help me to walk out the rest of this week with a peace inside. Restore my joy. Restore my peace. Restore my hope. I cannot make it through this life without You. Oh, how I long for You. You alone satisfy my soul. I am surrendered to You. I am Yours. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the Lord; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God. Psalm 84:2

For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. Philippians 1:21

As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for You, my God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God? Psalm 42:1-2