On Sunday as our family was spread out in different places, I was wondering…wondering about not forsaking the assembly. I want to honor God with all my life, and sometimes it’s hard to shake off man’s idea for God’s plan.
In this season where we’ve been called mostly to home church…our entire focus is God and family. On Sunday, with Chris and Naomi out of town, and Micah at a friend’s house…it left Hannah and I alone at home. We went to the track to get in our daily exercise, and while there I was praying…I was talking to God about not wanting to forsake the assembly…though I feel called to this simpler lifestyle. Suddenly, I saw myself in a heavenly place. I was dressed in white and surrounded by an assembly. I heard, “Assembly”. What better assembly to be a part of than a heavenly one!
As I continue to grow and mature in my walk with Jesus, I am constantly made aware that earthly understanding is so lacking…God in His infiniteness is impossible to fully comprehend. It’s like we spend our lifetime trying to grasp even the smallest portion of understanding from Someone Who is eternal. We simply never will achieve that. All we can do is listen, trust and obey…in spite of what man says. When I read scripture, particularly the New Testament, it’s not lost on me how the Pharisees were constantly trying to tell everyone how terrible they were when they themselves were sinning and covering it up. They followed Jesus around trying to trap Him and eventually they were the ones who pushed for His crucifixion.
There are still many with that same Pharisee spirit today. They want to tell you all you are doing wrong and how their way is the only way to live a righteous life, but scripture lets us know that Jesus is the ONLY way. Don’t you think that means we should listen to Him first and foremost?
Life isn’t a box. Everything, and I mean everything, I’m learning from God right now is out of my box. But it’s also so much more peaceful and joyful. I’m growing in Him by leaps and bounds and feel closer to Him than ever.
As a person who has struggled for a lifetime, with the fear of man, God has made it clear that part of the purpose of this season is to completely eradicate that from my life. I’m not called to follow man…I’m called to follow Jesus. The times when I’ve surrendered to following man, are the times I’ve suddenly found myself out of alignment with Jesus. I don’t want to do that again.
So, I’ll accept that there are some things I’ll never understand, and some people who will never understand me, but I’m learning to be ok with that. Jesus is everything. Holy Spirit tells me all I need to know. God is the Father I’ve always wanted. I lack for nothing.
God, help me to be ok with exactly what You tell me to do. Wash away the fear of man and let me only fear You. Help me to lean into Your love more and to experience fullness through You. I adore You. Thank You for loving me. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Come, my children, listen to me; I will teach you the fear of the Lod. Whoever of you loves life and desires to see many good days, keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking lies. Turn from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it. Psalm 34:11-14
I will give you thanks in the great assembly; among throngs of people I will praise you. Psalm 35:18