The Fountain Day 259: Falling apart to fall into place

There seems to be an ever-deepening breaking occurring in me.  I realize it can’t only be happening to me because I see one person after another speaking about a deeper work God is doing.  Every time I think we’ve reached the deepest place within me God takes me deeper.  It’s hard work.  It’s painful.  It’s humbling.  It’s so worth it.

I feel like I’m living these verses from Psalms…

Deep calls to deep in the roar of Your waterfalls; all Your waves and breakers have swept over me.  By day the Lord directs His love, at night His song is with me- a prayer to the God of my life.  Psalm 42:7-8

I’ve decided…no matter how deep God takes me, and no matter how stretching and painful it is…I’m going to surrender.  I don’t care what others perceive about my journey; I only want more of Him.  In my younger years, it was a fear of man’s opinion and perception that held me back from so many good things.  I’m done with that.  This world has nothing for me.  I journey with God and for Him.

I often feel like I’m falling apart so I can fall into place. 

Growing up in church and school settings I was corralled just like everyone else to look and act the same.  But God doesn’t desire to be followed by unfeeling clones.  He wants our hearts.  That means He wants our vulnerability and our differences and our individuality too. 

I know that now, as I look at my children.  I don’t require them to all be the same.  No, I parent each individual child and try to help cultivate their individuality.  I adore the little differences in each of them.  I love that they are unafraid to be exactly who they are.  What a gift!! 

Likewise, God loves us all.  If He didn’t appreciate differences, then why are we all created so differently?

It’s so simple, yet we have made it seem so complex.  Our creative Creator loves our differences.    

Will you join me in the journey to the deeper places?  Will you invite God to draw you out of the “normal” and into Him?  He keeps showing me that all I’ve ever known is Egypt…and He is calling me to the Promised Land.  He showed me that that’s all my parents and grandparents knew too.  We were all raised in it.  But it’s not our lot anymore.  We are being called out.  Called into the Promise.  What a wonderful privilege!

Will you join me in the journey?

The journey to what is next for all of us.  It’s going to be stretching.  It will be new…but it will be so much better than anything we’ve ever known before. 

The One Who calls you is faithful, and He will do it.  1 Thessalonians 5:24