It’s so funny how God works sometimes. He constantly amazes me and keeps me in a state of wonder.
These last couple of weeks have been so interesting for our family. So many growing opportunities have occurred for each of my children. I have been able to walk with each of them through all of it. Since I’m home and not working, I have been able to be tuned in to everything that’s occurring in their lives, and I’ve had the brain space to meet with God about every issue and learn how to parent through it. In our family things have been consistently changing, kids have been growing, Chris has been traveling for work, and I have been mama.
Suddenly it hit me…I’m living my dream. In fact, God is the One Who woke me up to see it.
I was at home and doing daily tasks while contemplating all the mothering I had been doing recently. Guiding and directing my kids. Listening to them and teaching them. Watching them mature and seeing the fruit of my labor begin to bloom. It’s truly an amazing time in our lives. Then it hit me…no matter what “needs” we still have as a family, I am living my dream.
I have longed to have the freedom to be a stay-at-home mama. A mama who can be with my kids and pour into them while they are still living in our home, then hopefully send them off to their own homes one day, while still maintaining a close and trusting relationship.
I’m doing just that.
The newborn and toddler years can feel long. Many moms spend a majority of those years finding ways to have others watch their kids. I never wanted that. Many people can’t wait to send their kids to school and don’t look forward to summer break at all. I was the opposite. My world felt complete when the kids were home and then I felt pangs when sending them away. I believe it was God consistently nudging me toward surrendering to homeschooling again. I resisted for years.
But God’s funny that way, He plants an idea in our hearts and though we may originally reject it, if we follow Him close enough…over time, His ideas become our dreams. He transforms our hearts as we walk with Him.
Oh Lord, come and change me more. Help me to celebrate motherhood daily. Help me to stop thinking that I should be more. Mama is enough. It’s a lot. It’s everything you’ve called me to be. Lord, I surrender.
I encourage you to search out what God desires from you, then live it without apology. Be all that He has called you to be…nothing more and nothing less.
Make it your goal to live a quiet life, minding your own business and working with your hands, just as we instructed you before. Then people who are not believers will respect the way you live, and you will not need to depend on others. 1 Thessalonians 4:11-12
365 Days in the Presence 