As I sat at the piano this morning, worshiping and centering my heart, I began thinking about a times when I have been asked to speak and lead a couple of songs at different churches. I thought of times when I’ve been a part of worship leadership at different churches. I thought of worship nights I’ve held in my home and the over thousand devotionals I’ve written. I thought of the hours I’ve spent in the presence of God. The hours I’ve spent praying over, training, and teaching my children. Then I wondered…what has come of it all.
What a horrible thought, really. Because the heart of it was a feeling of being unappreciated.
I’m being very transparent with you today.
When I felt that prick of insignificance hit my heart, it pierced the Holy Spirit living inside of me and I heard, “Mind your business.”
Immediately, I saw that it didn’t matter what I witnessed coming from any of those things that I’ve done. It’s not my business. If I’m truly serving out of my love for God, then what He does with it is His business, not mine.
Do you see what I’m trying to show you?
If we are serving out of selfishness, we will always be looking at what our impact has been. If we are serving God, we will leave it all on the field and move on to the next.
It’s none of my business.
It’s none of your business either.
We don’t get to decide the validity of our offerings.
The real question is, “Did I obey?”
I encourage you to evaluate your intentions. Our hearts are deceptive. Many people serve to glorify themselves, we’re all guilty of this at some time or another. Denying it only wraps it in pride.
God, empty me of myself and only let Your Spirit overflow from within me. Forgive me for anytime I’ve served in an effort to elevate myself. Please keep convicting me of the impurities in my heart. I give You full access to me. Mold me and make me Your own. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
To the faithful You show Yourself faithful, to the blameless You show Yourself blameless, to the pure You show Yourself pure, but to the devious You show Yourself shrewd. You save the humble but bring low those whose eyes are haughty. You, Lord, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light. With Your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall. As for God, His way is perfect; the Lord’s word is flawless; He shields all who take refuge in Him. Psalm 18:25-30
365 Days in the Presence 