I’ve wrestled all my life with being co-dependent. It’s not something I revel in, but it’s a true struggle I’ve had. Insecurity was borne in me, and I’ve spent the better part of 40 years wrestling it off of myself.
The morning of Christmas Eve I had a huge victory, though.
We were about to head out of town to celebrate with family for the day, and Chris was being a bit withdrawn and cranky. Not at all the way I’d like to see him when we leave to visit somewhere for the day. This often makes me feel insecure.
Instead of defaulting to my old way I did something else.
I went to the piano and worshiped. When I did, I heard in my spirit…”You are my first Husband.” I was telling God He was my first. Immediately, peace fell over me like a blanket and every insecure thought fell away. I rose and left the piano with restored confidence.
I love how He always meets me in the keys of the piano and the sweetness of a song.
I realize now that my co-dependent tendencies are an earthly reflection of the God dependence that I am supposed to live in.
As we drove out of town, I very quietly prayed in tongues. I did it until everything shifted for everyone else. And we all found joy.
God is so good.
When we remember to stay tethered to Him, we will always be able to live from peace.
Today I encourage you to remember that you are first married to Christ.
From that position you can face any and all things with so much grace.
Establish yourself in this truth.
Soak in it.
It will change your life.
Let us rejoice and be glad and give Him glory! For the wedding of the Lamb has come, and His bride has made herself ready. Fine linen, bright and clean, was given her to wear.” (Fine linen stands for the righteous acts of God’s holy people.) Then the angel said to me, “Write this: Blessed are those who are invited to the wedding supper of the Lamb!” And he added, “These are the true words of God.” Revelation 19:7-9
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