As a parent I am learning so much about what it’s like to wait for God to move in a person’s heart. As my children get older, I cry out to God often. I pray that He would grab a hold of their hearts and captivate their minds. So much of this stage of parenting pre-teens and teens involves letting go and letting God.
What I mean is, now my children are more capable of choosing. Of course, we all choose early in life, but when one approaches pre-teen and teen years that ability to choose increases so much. When they were toddlers it was easy to carefully guard their choices. Now as they are released into more and more freedom, it can sometimes be scary.
God has been very clear with me about letting go. He is constantly instructing me to give them more room to choose Him…..or not.
A few days ago, while struggling with how to best shepherd one of my kids, I had a vision.
I was walking in a thick fog, and I was saying, “God, how do I know where to go and what to do”. At the same time, I turned on a flashlight that I was carrying. (the flashlight represented me parenting in my own strength and failed wisdom). As you know, when you are in the fog, a man-made light can sometimes make it harder to see. For instance, when you are driving through fog you never want to turn on your high beams because then all you see is the fog, but with your low beams on you can see more of your surroundings. So, when the flashlight further clouded my vision, I turned it off and said, “God, I need you”. Immediately, I saw the Lord at my side, and He took my hand. He was clothed in solid white and was glowing. From the Light radiating from Him I began to see clearly. We continued to walk and hold hands.
He said to me, “The only way to navigate the fog is to stay very near to Me.”
Even as I type this I am deeply moved.
The bottom line is, I can’t control this season…..or my children’s hearts…..but I can trust in the Lord with all MY heart and lean not on my own understanding. That is where peace lives, so that is where I will stay.
God, You alone shape a person’s heart. You alone call Your children to Your heart. I know that You are calling all the unsaved or struggling people around me. I trust You. I will choose to trust You every day, and if I start to wander off and exercise my own “wisdom”, please call me out of the fog, and back to Your side. I love You. In Jesus name, Amen.
We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps. Proverbs 16:9
For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 1 Corinthians 13:12
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path. Proverbs 3:5-6