Day 68: Put me in coach (March 9)

When I was in junior high school, my parents decided to put me into a Christian school.  In an attempt to make friends, I joined the basketball team.  Up to that point I had danced ballet and tap, taken gymnastics and played piano, but I had never played a team sport before.  The first practice was so exciting for me!  It wasn’t a strict practice that day, rather it was a huge group and everyone got a chance to show their skill levels while the coaches began to decide who would be on each team.  The exhilaration I felt running up and down the court with friends guarding and shooting, etc. was overwhelming.  When the coach had me sit so the next group could go out, I was still on cloud nine.  An older girl came and sat next to me and asked what I thought about playing.  I excitedly said how I loved it and couldn’t wait to go back onto the court again.  She said, “Oh, you should go tell the coach you want to go back out again, they really love when you do that.”  I said, “Really?”  This was all new to me and I was extremely trusting and naïve.  She again encouraged me to go speak up, so I quietly walked over and stood next to one of the coaches and said I’d really like to go play again.  Well, I think you know how this ended.  He yelled at me and scolded me for having the audacity to ask him that question and said he was the coach and would make that decision, not me.  I was completely humiliated.  As I walked back to my seat, I saw the girl who had encouraged me to speak to him laughing at me.  Then I knew, she had done it on purpose.  Not only did I feel totally betrayed by this person, I couldn’t figure out why she would’ve done that, and I barely got to play again the rest of the season.  That was the full extent of my basketball career.   It’s amazing how telling such an old story can still make my heart feel pain and betrayal, but it does.  While thinking about this story last night, in preparation to write, I had to again pray forgiveness over that person and over my own foolishness.  I was young and naïve and really didn’t do anything wrong, but I’ve had to deal with shame over the incident.

Fortunately, I’ve learned that God can use any situation for His good in your life.  What I gleaned from that situation was to never self-promote.  I know that if I put myself in a position then it’s up to me to maintain that, but if I wait and let God move things in His timing, He will maintain everything for me.  In my life right now, there are a few places where I am waiting for God to move me forward.  Sometimes, God shows me places where He wants me to move into more leadership, but I am never to take that information and begin to promote myself.  Instead it’s an opportunity to let Him mature me in the waiting.

When you look at your life right now, how would you evaluate your willingness to let God’s timing move your life forward?  Do you moan and groan in the waiting, or do you use it as an opportunity to deepen your walk with Him?  Do you have trouble pushing forward when God says hold back?  Are you living in such a way that God can trust you with knowing His plan in advance, or are you needing to learn the art of self-control?  That fruit of the Spirit that many overlook or under value.  In the world we live in now, self-control is more necessary than ever.

I encourage you today to take a moment and get quiet.  Ask the Lord if you are walking in self control and allowing Him to move your life forward in His timing.  Let His holy conviction wash over your heart and bring to surface any pride that may need to be removed.  He loves you too much to let hidden pride sabotage your life.  I’m so glad every time He shines a light on prideful places in my heart.  It may sting for a moment, but the relief of removing that thorn far outweighs the pain.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.  Against such things there is no law.  Galatians 5:22-23

Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.  James 1:4

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.  Romans 8:28

One thought on “Day 68: Put me in coach (March 9)

  1. That was very inspiring sister. I love your posts. They are an encouragement to me and I’m sure to others also. When Mom passed away on Damon’s birthday, ( my oldest grandson), I went home to my husband that same morning and accidentally found out that he was planning to leave me for someone else. I must have been in shock, so I asked him about it and he told me he was going to wait on his best friends’ wife – that they had a connection. I couldn’t say anything at the time except “Ok”. Later, when I went into the bedroom, he was chatting with her on Facebook. He didn’t even notice that I walked into the room. He was smiling from ear to ear while chatting, then I went a little crazy on him. It just hit me all at once. I lost my mother, my husband,, my home, marriage after 20 years. It was all going to be gone and I would be left alone. We’ve been separated for 2 years now and will be divorcing soon. But, God was so good to me. He protected me during that whole year from suicide and losing my mind, because I don’t remember what I did or what I was doing, I lost all that time out of my life, but I still knew that He was there, going through it with me. I had put my faith in man instead of God. I knew I had to choose to forgive him. His plan didn’t work out with the woman, but he left anyway. The good that came out of all of this is I did forgive him and her. God picked me up and put me back on the narrow road and brought me so much more closer to Him. My husband is an atheist, so I still pray for his salvation everyday and will continue to do that, along with my family. The devil tried to kill both of us several times, but God protected us. And I’m so grateful and thankful to Him for that. We are both in a better place now. I am where God wants me for the moment and I know He has great plans for my future and my husband’s. When I look back, it’s so much clearer, that I had prayed before all that happened – that God would either save him or take him out of my life, because I was letting him hold me back from what I should have been doing. I was so worried and stressed about his PTSD and threats of suicide and had been supporting him for 2 years and trying to get him some help and Mom was so sick, we knew we wouldn’t have her much longer. It was just overwhelming for me. But, in the end, I was able to forgive him and her and be friends with him, because I realized how much God had forgiven me for. How could I not forgive him? I’m thankful now for the years we had together. We had at least 18 good years. I’m thankful for all the years we had with Mom and Pop, too. I felt kind of like Job for awhile, except didn’t allow the devil to take any one else in my family or my love for God. I was also as stubborn as Jonah when God told him to go to Nineveh. I wouldn’t let go of my husband or Mom in my heart. Now, that I have, I’m free to worship God the way I need to. I’m living for Him now. And I’ve posted prayers on my walls in my apartment for each person in my family. I write down the Scripture that goes along with everyone’s needs and then I pray that Scripture over them, and myself. I’ve surrounded myself with the Word on my walls and my apartment is my War Room. Just like the movie. God has humbled me and I love Him for it. He is the breath I breathe. And I wake up every morning and thank Him for another day and for the work He’s doing in my family. I’m starting to see my prayers being answered. I’ve decided that it’s His Will, His Way and His timing. Love requires great sacrifice, just as Jesus sacrificed himself for us. Don’t get me wrong. I still have rough days, but I know I’m safe in His arms. I thank You and Praise You, my Father, for all you’ve done in my life. I can hardly wait to see Jesus face to face, but I feel like there’s much more work He wants me to do. So, I keep seeking His face and His will in my life. It’s time for me to be the disciple He’s groomed me to be. No more milk. It’s all meat now. So, watch out devil !! I will keep fighting, praying, crying out to God for those I love. The more you hit us, the harder I’ll pray!! And the more I’ll praise Him. In the Mighty name of Jesus’, our Messiah. .

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