I recently had an experience with the perfect love of God, and I wanted to share it in hopes that you too would recognize when He’s holding you with that same love.
Our family has had a lot of discussions about love languages lately, and through that thought process I have discovered that acts of service is my number one. But it’s not acts of service in the common thought. I enjoy working in partnership with people. I feel most loved when people invest in partnering with me in work, or dreams, and many other things. I didn’t fully realize it before, but I feel most alive and fulfilled when this occurs. All of this leads me to the following story…..
I was preparing to lead worship, and after I sent out the list of songs our pianist contacted me saying she thought I should play piano for third song because it was so intimate and then I should go ahead and play for the final song as well. This moved me for a few different reasons. First, if you’ve ever been a musician, then you know how rare it is for anyone to step aside and let someone else take there “spot” even for a moment. This friend is not that way however, she sacrificially worships on our team and is never distant from humility. Second, she is an accomplished pianist and I am not, so it was as if she was saying, “I believe in you! I know you can do this.” Right away my spirit bore witness that it would be best for me to play, but immediately after, I began to feel insecurities about how others would perceive this. I became insecure about meeting other’s expectations, all the while, I knew she was right and I should play, so I agreed. At practice the transition between her playing and me making my way to the piano mid-set and switching places worked really well. Suddenly, I felt really excited and full inside. I felt loved! It wasn’t until later that I realized what had happened….actually, it was what God had orchestrated. He reminded me how I had been feeling insecure, but in the moment when we practiced and worked together as a group to make this transition all that fear melted away and I literally forgot about it.
Why is that? Well, it was because working in partnership is my primary love language. And there you have it! God perfectly loving me in my specific language led me to walk out of fear and into His Presence without consciously knowing it. How amazing is that? How awesome is our Father?!
That was the first time God has brought to my attention the workings of His perfect love. I have long wondered how I would attain to walk in His perfect love, now I see it’s something already at work in my life, I just wasn’t aware. I knew I kept growing in boldness and didn’t yet understand that it was because I was walking further into His perfect love.
I am bold in worship because I know He loves me. Still, hangnails of fear will show themselves from time to time and I never knew why. Now I know. The only reason I experienced His perfect love this last week, was because I decided to do something new and push past a haze of fear. What I found on the other side was….the Father’s love.
Have you experienced even a glimpse of His perfect love? Is fear standing like a fog before you and making you second guess everything? I encourage you to take one step forward and watch the fog disappear as the Glory of God is revealed to you in new ways. We can’t experience something new from God if we are never willing to do anything different. It doesn’t have to be a big change. It only needs to be a forward motion. Will you step out today? Who knows, you just may find yourself walking into His perfect love!
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. 1 John 4:18
Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert. Isaiah 43:19