Lately, I’ve had several encounters with affection that had previously hit a dead spot inside of my heart. For years now, I have prayed God would awaken that spot inside of me. I couldn’t fully identify the location of the numbness, but I knew it was there.
I noticed that even though I seem to crave positive affirmation, when it is delivered, it hits a blank space. That is, it did, until a couple of weeks ago.
Recently, my father came to me and spoke some words I have longed to hear from a father for a long time. Only this time when he spoke, I forced myself to continue to make eye contact with him and internally told God that I would receive this affection.
Something began to stir inside of me.
Soon after, when Chris took me away for the weekend, he lavished me with affection in words and actions, and instead of pushing away, I constantly reminded myself to receive.
Another piece stirred inside.
This week, I have continually reminded myself that God has a deep affection for me and I have worked to maintain eye contact with Him and to truly listen to Him. He loves you too.
God, awaken me. Move over any numb places I have inside and bring them to life. I want to fully experience Your love and one way to do so is to be ALIVE. Bring me back to life. I am Yours. In Jesus name, Amen.
I encourage you to take some time today, close your eyes and ask God to reveal any numb places you have inside. Will you invite Him into those places? What is it like to feel again? Praise Him as you feel Him moving in previously dead places.
God, bring me back to You. Lamentations 5:21
God, pick up the pieces. Put me back together again. You are my praise! Jeremiah 17:14
I write these things to you who believe in the name of the Son of God so that you may know that you have eternal life for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith 1 John 5:14
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