Deeper Day 10: Reaching

I woke up this morning and was almost instantly in a vision….

I saw myself in the water.  I was peacefully floating around when suddenly I was aware that God was near.  I reached out to grab hold of Him, but He was just outside of my reach.  Frustrated, I reached out again.   I never could quite reach Him and in the end, I had a sinking feeling inside, “I will never get where I’m trying to go.”

It was then that I realized the whole point of the encounter…..That final statement I had made revealed a deep seated lie that I truly felt inside.  This lie has been a stumbling block for me.  It’s been a place of major discouragement.  Before I even begin the next leg of my journey, I feel ultimately it will end in defeat.  In my heart, I truly have believed that, try as I might I will never step into the fullness that God has planned for me.  And to top it all off, somewhere inside I believed it was my fault.

There’s a deeper part of this too though…..somewhere in the very deepest of places within my heart, I believed God kept moving the bar so that I couldn’t reach Him.

Now, that’s being super honest and real.

You can never defeat a lie until you completely unearth its origin.  You must pull out all its roots and sever all its ties.

What’s next for me?  You may be asking.

Well, first I thanked God for revealing this belief to me.  I admitted that in my heart, that was truly how I felt, and now I have given Him full access to transform my mind to be in alignment with what He says about me.  I know it will be a process, but I have and will continue to make myself willing to be changed.

Prayer Moment:  Do you have that feeling of reaching and never achieving?  Are you working your way into the Father’s good graces?  I have news for you, He has already done all the work, you only need to receive.  I encourage you today to bring your heart to God in a posture of receiving.  He gives good gifts.


I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship.  Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.  Romans 12:1-2

Now it is evident that no one is justified before God by the law, for “The righteous shall live by faith.”  But the law is not of faith, rather “The one who does them shall live by them.”  Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us—for it is written, “Cursed is everyone who is hanged on a tree.”—So that in Christ Jesus the blessing of Abraham might come to the Gentiles, so that we might receive the promised Spirit through faith.  Galatians 3:11-14