As I sit and write this morning, I am in my own home and have the privilege of being completely alone. As a wife and mom of four this is a real rarity, and I will cherish each moment. This is not because I don’t love my family, quite the contrary, this is because I love them.
Knowing myself and that I need alone time to refuel and re-energize means that I will seek out these moments and use them to sit in the stillness, get tasks done, eat some good food, worship, write, and any other thing my heart desires. These are things that refill my tank.
For many years, I carried a deep guilt at the thought of needing some pockets of alone time. Then I realized this was some unhealthy and unnecessary expectation that I had allowed to be placed upon me. The enemy was using that guilt to keep me exhausted, both physically and emotionally. It kept me in a place where I was always pouring out and struggling to find any time to be filled, but as you know, a person cannot give what they do not have. Now, I make it a priority to find pockets of alone. I rise before my family every day. I do this completely intentionally, so I can sit with God and have my tea and coffee and then be emotionally ready to embrace each member of my family. I do this because I love God and want to spend time with Him. I do this because I need to.
So, this next couple of days, I am receiving a kiss from God, in the form of alone time, and I am simply grateful. His presence was here when I woke up. His Spirit keeps falling on me as I write. We are enjoying one another. Earlier I began to feel like I should orchestrate my day, so I get the most out of it, and then I felt the gentle nudge to just be still. So, I made a decision to walk out this day at God’s tempo, not mine and I will listen to His invitation to do or not do things, then I know when this day ends I will be full.
Prayer Moment: Friends, even during this time of quarantines and restrictions, it is important to tend to your soul. What are you needing? God will make a way for you to receive the things you need. Just be honest with Him, He already knows. Ask Him to provide ways for you to connect with Him. If you refuel from being with others, then ask Him for creative ideas to have that place in your heart filled. He will do it. He knows who you are and what you need, He made you the way you are, don’t be ashamed of it.
How great is Your goodness, which You have stored up for those who fear You, which You bestow in the sight of men on those who take refuge in You. In the shelter of Your presence You hide them from the intrigues of men; in Your dwelling You keep them safe from accusing tongues. Psalm 31:19-20
A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones. Proverbs 14:30