Recently I had a very clear memory, and as I walked through it in my mind I realized that God was trying to speak to my heart about today. So, as I pressed in I began to see a Godly principle unfold before me.
I remembered my labor with Hannah. At one point, when we knew her birth was not going to happen at home after such long labor, we headed to the hospital. One of the first things they needed to do for me was start an IV. For reasons unknown to me, they brought in someone who was new and still learning to start IV’s. She kept sticking my arm, seriously trying over and over again between 3-6 times to get that dang IV started. I must interject that I have really great veins that are not at all hidden and every other time I’ve had an IV, the person starting it has always marveled at the ease of doing that with me. Now, I’m sitting in the bed, having been in active labor for 52 hours. I’m exhausted. I’m so sore all over. My mind is so tired. My defenses were low. I had every reason to be angry and snap at this girl and the woman watching her try. Those who had come to the hospital with me began to lament the amount of pricks I was receiving. Yet, inside I was mustering every ounce of patience and grace to not curse at this poor girl. Finally, when I had enough I very softly and calmly said, “I would like someone else to try now, please.”
I have to be honest I’m still amazed that I had the self-control that day to remain kind, but I realize it was a supernatural response. That response was able to emerge from me because I had prayed to be that way and I had taken opportunities to walk that way previously, and honestly, because I had failed at it many times before and knew the weight of my actions.
During times of discomfort, we don’t get a “pass” to misbehave.
My testimony that day was real. Who knows what was affected in someone’s heart because I remained calm and respectful. I didn’t need to cut down that poor girl, she was likely nervous enough. She needed grace and I gave until I had given all I could, then I asked nicely for someone else.
I’m not at all glorifying myself or saying I’m so much better than anyone else, what I am saying is, we need to wake up and mature to the point that we realize our actions matter. They matter at all times and in all circumstances. We are called to be the salt and light of the world. We are most definitely responsible for our actions. Even when we are hurting or being hurt, we are called to remain the salt and light. We can look to Jesus for this very example. He endured the worst 24 hours imaginable, yet He never spoke a cross word and went to the grave thinking of others. We are called to be like Him.
Prayer Moment: God, please help me to walk out difficult times with true dignity. Help me to always and under every circumstance point people to Jesus by the way I behave. Forgive me for the times when I have failed at this. There are many. God, my desire is to walk so closely with You that people don’t see me, but You. I know this will take a lifetime, but I’m willing to keep working toward it every day. Forgive me of my sins and lead me down paths of righteousness. In Jesus name, Amen.
“You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men. You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.” Matthew 5:13-16