I sat at the piano and worshiped. My mind is tired, my body is too. The days have felt long and quite honestly, I’ve been begging God for a time of peace and abundance because I’m weary from the constant battles. Yet, when I rose from the keyboard and started to leave my music room, I heard God speak, “Wait”. Immediately after, I remembered these verses…
Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and His understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in (wait on/trust in) the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:28-31
When your life is in transition…when you’re living out a middle portion…some people call it “walking in the hallway”…it can be wearying. There are times when I feel like screaming for breakthrough to come…for prophesy over our lives to be fulfilled…but when those feelings come, I know what to do…return to His Presence. Return to worship and remind myself that none of this is actually about me, it’s all about Him. He gave me this life, He knows how to spend it. He gave me this family, He knows what they need. Even when members of my family lament to me about being in the transition…or they demand movement before it’s time…it is imperative for us to return to His Presence and be still. It was from one of the mentioned scenarios that I went to worship today…a family member is feeling antsy and wanting to begin moving forward. I went to God and laid it down. I turned my face toward His and just worshiped. I didn’t even ask Him about anything and I didn’t know God would speak about it, I simply went to worship Him and refocus my mind…yet, as I walked away He spoke.
When He spoke, I knew immediately what He was talking about. He was talking about our family…we are to wait. But in that waiting, so much is occurring. Just like the verses say, in the waiting we receive strength, we soar and run and walk…in the waiting we are refreshed. So, I will wait.
Even when it’s uncomfortable, I will wait. Even when I can’t even see how we will get through, I will wait.
In the same way that I trusted God to bring me a husband if He wanted to, I trust Him with our future as a family. He knows what He is doing. He deserves my trust. He has earned my obedience. I will wait.
And I know that when my family members get antsy or impatient, it’s a great opportunity for God to grow them. It’s a chance for maturity to take root. It’s a time when their relationship with God can become deeper. I won’t interfere with that by acquiescing to their grumbling or frustration. I will wait.
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. Psalm 27:14
But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise, as some understand slowness. Instead, He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish but everyone to come to repentance. 2 Peter 3:8-9