This morning I was crying out to God. Telling Him I felt lost and wondering where all this confusion and frustration was coming from. I asked Him where He was because I know He’s here, but I can’t seem to find Him…Then I saw Him…
God was sitting in a beautiful den. The whole picture was inviting. It was the kind of den you would see in castles or really nice homes. It had shelves of books all around and a warm, cozy fireplace. He was sitting in a really large, red armchair. He sat and waited for me to climb into His lap. I asked Jesus to take me to Him…then something unique happened. I saw myself first as a little girl, then as a woman. Jesus asked me how I wanted to be held today. I replied without thinking, “I want to be held as a little girl would, but in my grown form.”
I can’t tell you how often I, as a woman in her forties, long to simply be held. Held like a child. Held like God’s treasure. Held in a way that melts off the cares of this world and leaves me feeling full. I haven’t felt full in a while. But instead of dwelling on the emptiness, I’m asking God to fill me. To heal what needs healing and bring me back to a position of fullness.
Fullness only comes from God. He is my One and only Source. He is my delight. He is my faithful Friend. In Him I am complete. Apart from Him, there is nothing.
So, today I’ll crawl up into His lap and be held. From the position of being held I head out to face this day. From being cared for, I will care for others.
When is the last time you allowed yourself to simply be held? Have you ever been invited to sit in the Father’s lap?
Time to be held. Time to see Him. Time to know Him better.
God is in a constant state of invitation. He longs for us. Longs to be Daddy. Longs to be known to us, even as we make ourselves known to Him. He sees our daily struggles, and even though He knows eternity, He still validates us. It’s remarkable. Quite unfathomable, that the God of all creation will sit with us in our day to day lives. He sits with us in our wins and losses. In our struggles and confusion. He holds us and waits for us to let it all out, then He gives us a glimpse of eternity…not so much that it would overwhelm us…just enough that we will feel consumed.
I long for eternity. Every day I long for it. But for now, any glimpse He’ll give me will be enough.
My son, if your heart is wise, then My heart will be glad; My inmost being will rejoice when your lips speak what is right. Do not let your heart envy sinners, but always be zealous for the fear of the Lord. There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off. Proverbs 23:15-18
The fear of the Lord teaches a man wisdom, and humility comes before honor. Proverbs 15:33