Lately while entering some new territory in life, I keep having visions of myself walking in maturity and wisdom…..but in my actual day to day life, I find myself struggling with emotions and on occasion feeling shame that I am not doing better. Shame that I don’t appear to be walking in the maturity and wisdom that I so desperately seek.
Then in a flash it occurred to me what was actually happening. God was giving me vision of the person He is currently shaping me into. He is using my current life circumstances to grow and mature me, so instead of feeling shame, I should just continue to press into Him and allow Him constant access and opportunity to cultivate the soil of my heart.
I realized that many of us misinterpret God sometimes. He is always looking out for our best interest, and as a good Father He knows that we need something to “aim” toward. I have heard it said that when you set a goal it should be higher than you hope to attain so that you reach your full potential. I now believe that is what God does for me quite often. He shows me myself way down the road, but He never expected me to become that person all at once. He is a God of process.
I think He has a dual purpose in this, though. I believe He also sets a high goal for me, something I can’t achieve on my own, to remind me of my dependence upon Him and to give me the opportunity to partner with Him. Oh, how He loves partnership! I definitely know this about Him.
So next time you see the ideal “you” lingering in your mind, let it become encouragement, not criticism. God is ALWAYS a good Father. Learn to trust that. He loves you enough to not let you stay the same. He wants to partner with you as you grow…..and hopefully as you mature, you will also grow closer and closer to His heart.
God, thank You for always wanting what is best for me. Thank You for always encouraging me to become the best me that I can. I surrender to Your plan and process for my life, and I will not feel shame when I fail or “miss the mark”. Instead, I will turn straight to You and let the light of Your love remove all disappointment and reset my heart to keep moving forward into Your heart for my life.
Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:12-14
Let love be your greatest aim; nevertheless, ask also for the special abilities the Holy Spirit gives, and especially the gift of prophecy, being able to preach the messages of God. 1 Corinthians 14:1
Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 1 Corinthians 13:12