Day 48: Eclipse (February 17)

This morning when I first woke up, I went for a run in my basement and then made my way to the trusty coffee pot.  When I looked out the window by my pantry, I could see the moon setting in a beautiful glow of white light falling behind the trees.  After I retrieved my steaming cup of coffee I moved into the den and noticed I could also see a magnificent pink and orange sunrise!  So, simultaneously I could stand in one spot in my kitchen and see the rising sun and the setting moon each shining in their unique glory.

I was taken back by this moment.  I immediately wondered what God would have to say about this, and then I felt that old familiar stirring.  He spoke, “There is beauty to be found in what you’re leaving behind, and beauty in your future.  It’s ok to acknowledge both.”

For a long time in my walk I felt when I left a season it was because it was no longer good enough.  Or when I needed to make a choice between two things, one had to be lesser.  What I’ve realized as I’ve walked into a deeper understanding of the Lord is that is not always true.  Sometimes we leave one great thing, to embark on another great thing!

On the other hand, I can’t be so enamored with the beauty of my present or past, that I’m unwilling to look for the beauty of the new season.  Does this make any sense?

I guess what I’m trying to muddle through is, it’s really good to have a firm reverence and appreciation for where you are, where you are going and where you’ve been.  It’s ok to acknowledge the pain of moving on.  It’s good to acknowledge the beauty of knowing we have a beautiful future.

Standing in my kitchen, I felt I was standing in an eclipse moment in my own life.  So much good has been happening, but I have very clearly heard God speaking of new things lately.  Things way outside of my comfort zone.  Things my mind has no grid for, so He has been gradually giving me vision of where we are headed.  Just enough to keep me focused and aware.  God knows each of us so well, He tailors our walk through life in such a specific way.  He knows I respond best to change that starts gradually in my heart before it makes it into the world around me.  If I stay close to His side, He always gives me a glimpse of what is to come so I have time to process it out before it really happens.

What a generous Father.  I love being known so well.  I love that life gets easier to walk out when I let Him know me.  When I acknowledge and respond to His forewarning.  Thank You God for loving me that way.

Are you feeling like you are in an eclipse season?  Are you ready to walk into a new thing?  Give yourself permission to grieve what you are leaving behind.  There is no shame in grieving.   I always give myself that opportunity.  Then let yourself be excited.  Have you ever felt challenged at the idea of being excited?  I have.  Sometimes the weight of past disappointments holds me back from truly delighting in the idea of a new blessing.  I make it my practice to walk straight through that now.  Not lingering in the valley of broken dreams, but instead believing in the hope of the future and knowing God has always planned to bless my life abundantly as I walk arm and Arm with Him.  My faithful Leader.  My eternal Friend.

(If it seems some of these devotionals are feeling a little redundant, please realize I have given God permission to speak one idea as many different times as necessary, and in as many different ways as He needs to so it soaks into the heart of any one who needs that word.  So, please be patient, and if you feel I’m repetitive at times, just know I am doing it at His prompting.  There is most often more than one perspective to discover.)

“For I know the plans I have for you”, declares the Lord, “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plant to give you hope and a future.  Jeremiah 29:11

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.  Romans 8:28

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